If you asked me two weeks ago what I thought of our health system, my answer would've been mostly positive. Although there are downfalls I have been lucky to have a few amazing specialists and team who support me, so for the most part I can't complain.
If you asked me last week what I thought of our health system, my answer would be one of frustration and disappointment.
If you ask me today what I
thought of our health system, my answer would be that it needs some serious
improvements, but there are angels in this system....if you're lucky enough to
come across one, that is.
At times health, healthcare and treatment are
like a lottery. You might never win and have to fight the system your whole
life or you might win after your millionth entry. You might win on your first
go or you might have partial wins over time. No one has the same ticket and no
one else knows how important this entry is to you. It's just you, hope and
whatever gets drawn.
Well after a good run of health, I got my kick
in the butt and I'm over it already. Quite spectacularly I have
fallen from my perch of feeling semi-human right into a new pile of rubbish.
Who was I kidding when I started to think I had this worked out.
During the past week or so I have witnessed and
experienced what it's like to be desperate for help and stuck in the thick of healthcare lottery. Whilst I have been treated
well and listened to, I have also had the fear of being put into the too hard
basket, yet again. A place where no one wants to 'own' your problem nor deal
with it. It is all just too hard and sadly for many people out there, it's also too familiar.
As a result of my new dilemma, when I sat in my specialists office last week I
shed a tear. Normally, I try to be strong and objective and save my tears for
private but this time I just couldn't. I was not crying because I was treated poorly. I
was not crying because of my new issue. I was crying because I felt desperate
and relieved at the same time.
Did I get a cure? No.
Did I hear what I wanted to? No.
Was it good news? No.
Would I leave with the problem resolved? No.
But what I did get was someone to stand up for
me and show me that I count - Someone decided my number was worth pulling. This came as quite a relief because I had just experienced the polar opposite to this days before. I was told earlier in the week that I was
booked into an urgent clinic and that they would help me, only one day later to
be told that the clinic was not appropriate and has no expertise in dealing
with my issue. That's it. No direction, just lost in motion. I felt like the
system betrayed me and left me without the help I needed. I was terrified of getting lost in the system and
forgotten as my usual teams do not deal in my new area of issues. There was no
real 'go-to' person to help me or pull my number for the jackpot win this time,
and it was frightening. I was shoulder deep in the healthcare lottery limbo and
it was awful.
I was so desperate for help and I didn't realise
it until I sat in the hospital and my specialist apologised to me for the way
the health system works and acknowledged the difficulty for me to be dealing
with another thing. With a few phone calls to other specialities and an hour of her lunch break organising appointments and surgery to help my new problem, she validated my desperation and she was proactive about
helping me. This day I was lucky, this day I won the lottery.
I was treated with respect and
feel like the healthcare system worked for me, but in actual fact when I look
back on it, the reality is, today I had someone in the right position fight to
make the system work. The system itself didn't technically work for me at all. Now, I know I cannot really
complain when I have a few amazing specialists on my team who I consider angels
and I hear of so many people suffering, but I do think our healthcare system is
broken.
Had I not have a few wonderful specialists fight for me and help me
through navigating a system of bureaucracy and hierarchy I would be worse of.
In fact today because I had someone fight for me I have a plan and an
appointment and have already undergone a procedure with a team onboard to help my new issue and
continue my care in this area. Two speciality areas that seemed
unreachable before were reachable because my doctor fought for me. If I had no one in the 'right' position to turn this situation
around and be my advocate I would be stuck waiting and hoping for my lottery
ticket to be drawn.
This week I entered the lottery that should not exist.
This week the healthcare system revealed its flaws in brilliant colours.
This week illuminated how lucky I am to have an amazing healthcare team who go above and beyond to help me every time my body throws a new curve ball.
This week and EVERY other week I wish that healthcare wasn't such a lottery and everyone 'won' every time they needed help.
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